The Unattainable Dream

My heart needs friendship.
It aches in my chest for someone to love.
That is how we were made...
To know and be known.
But through the years I have realized
That it is all an illusion, a mirage of sorts.
Something you think you see.
You swear it's yours to have forever.
Finally your heart is complete
With the one you found.
The world doesn't seem as big now.
The night is not as scary now.
You have someone with you...
To know and be known.
As you wrap your arms around them tighter,
They begin to slip from your grasp.
You frantically try to keep a hold.
But they begin to vanish like smoke in the wind.
"Don't leave me!" you scream into the night.
They don't seem to hear.
The ears that were so quick to listen before
Seem to be deaf to your voice.
"Where are you?" you cry
As your eyes search the blackness.
But the eyes that once held your gaze
Seem to be blinded to your presence.
You know there is nothing you can do
But watch them fade out of your life.
It is then that you realize...
You are back where you started,
Alone and afraid.
You once again get used to the way things were...
Before.
Soon it happens again.
Out of nowhere someone appears
Like a mirage on the horizon.
They seem real and once again you rejoice.
But as soon as you reach out,
They begin to disappear like a star covered by clouds.
Why do we do this to ourselves?
Why do we allow our hearts to become attached
When we know there is nothing substantial
To this word we call "friendship".
And yet we fall in and out of each others' lives
Over and over.
Like a viscious cycle.
There always remains a longing in our hearts.
Someone to cherish.
Someone to share our lives with
Forever.
And although we know it's out of our reach,
We fall for it every time.
Every time.
We never learn, and our hearts suffer for it.
But that is how we were made...
To know and be known.
And it will be what keeps us going
All of our days.
This unattainable dream.