These Days

There will be days when I feel okay
Like everything is fine.
Then there will be days when all I can do is miss him,
And the way things used to be.
Sometimes life looks exciting and new.
Other times life is just full of memories I wish I could go back to.
One day I am happy and cool with my life.
One day I am just aching to hold onto the way things used to be.
There are afternoons I stay busy and keep him away.
Then there are afternoons when the pain is just too much.
I lay on my bed and when I close my eyes, his face is all I see.
I see his smile. His dancing eyes.
I feel his arm around me.
And all I can do is cry silently for what may never be.
At one point I thought I was ready for all this to be over
And just move on with my life.
But there are always days like today.
I don't want to lose you.
I just want to keep you close to me.
To be my very own.
Here with me, By my side.
Forever.